we were always on the alert for a long conflict because if we get intelligence about militants in the neighborhood it's usually reliable with the squadron has played a part in conflicts before but this was the first attack of its kind on terrain like this. when we were expecting them and we were ready for them at any moment but it was a very difficult area and they were able to open fire first. was not. used to do. for a special forces soldier thinking is paramount but was that's how he makes the right decisions. during that five militants tried to outflank the three soldiers led by. and started throwing hand grenades at them. both covered one of those grenades with his own body and. of course i was frightened but i tried to compose myself i was thinking somehow i had to come back

because mom was waiting for me this is a thought the chems you down mom's waiting. x. is a serious number for their. every one of us is ready for it well perhaps not completely ready to prepare yourself for death but we do know the risks we know what our task is and above all where it is that we see. and that was the first loss my unit ever suffered. and the first loss under my command. general. just great. good morning to play comrade major i often think of them especially of gaming he was different to all the other

near recruits. he approached me and asked if he could enroll in my group who he wanted to serve in a special messy unit. i showed him a blank sheet from my notebook and said. you two are a clean sheet at the moment it's up to you to prove yourself worthy everything's in your own hands. people have to make the decision themselves if a man wants to put himself to the test to go through this trial den he must do so also becoming a soldier was always my ambition to work. i'm usually the singer is the chosen arbitrarily fall in love with the first is mostly the soldier with the loudest voice. in this regard to you again it was always the

best when he sang in the school choir and was never even barest. you can so he had no problem saying that army with so many people listening to him. we both thought there was still plenty of time before he left town so when the fifteenth of november when he had to go eventually came around because we spent the whole night picking his things in hari martin's vs a sweet tooth he had won so have his huge hold all was crammed to the break with snickers chocolate bars and other sweets flutist hysteria taking warm clothes out to because they didn't fit but he wouldn't allow me to touch the suite and. that was completely out of the question to start. telling us that few. times i just knew that everything would be fine

for some reason we were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back with everything was planned or what even sent out invitations how could he not come back we thought of the mere thought of it never crossed our minds that sorry i can't. i heard somewhere that heroes and cowards feel exactly the same things the difference is that the hero moves on anyway while the card steps back. but often the case national to be afraid every deployment feels like the first ever

seen repeats itself everyone scared while getting ready for the mission i never think i'm invincible in mosul fearless nothing like that we're lies that event off of the mission in the classroom we drew plans of the conflicts. this usually takes the best of us because the bases are always up front because they're the quickest to make decisions like you get the app of did during that fight. that there was a. surprise. good. this was the so-called terrorist group which in just one year before that fight carried out several terror attacks inside pakistan these people were fanatics they'd abandoned

normal life for them life had become war. killed me. they took part in attacks on the security services. they were directly involved in killing law enforcement officers. and they were responsible for terror attacks in the town of. in fact the whole area in dagestan and. the special forces are an isolated community i can't understand how their wives are able to wait constantly anxious. even when a special forces soldier is at home he can be called up at any moment. it means their wives are always waiting knowing that their man might not come back. we had a heart to heart talk wants me any game he had he told me a lot about himself i asked more and more questions sometimes i didn't even have to

ask. he just took whatever the subject was and elaborate on that. when i asked my mother to send me my documents i didn't tell her i was going to sign a contract to serve in a special forces unit. and she might have guessed but she didn't know for sure during my first deployment i was lying to her about where i was and what i was doing. that i can find the words to describe how it feels when you're super tense and anxious that every phone call every text message sets your teeth on edge you can or when he calls and tells you in that convoy so if his when i'm good we're going on a mission for about five days maybe more don't worry i'll call as soon as i'm back home with one. poll come to us. no camera journal so we had an exam

passing it grants you the right to wear the special forces chevron and khaki bray. that's the first stage everyone tried really hard if gagne was very strong willed i used to say stubborn he would set goals for himself and you could see he was moving on to achieve them. so that when you set yourself a goal you try to achieve it at any cost. in spite of all that of the two hundred twenty two soldiers who took the exam only thirty three of those past. gagne and i were running in the same race. marsh's the main test was soldier stamina.

as you can. the purpose of the test is to make sure that we will know what it's like when you're utterly exhausted and still have to drag a fellow soldier along the borders that's a part of the special forces code under no circumstances will we ever leave one of our guys on the battlefield you drag your friend because you know that his life is more important than your own. i passed the test on my first attempt and you get me on his second or third after passing that we could both probably hold our heads up high. you know i feel the exam once in so did you have guinea. this he was doing pushups i slapped him on the helmet and said to gether boy. a

lot of things remind me of him to work together for example. no i had to do it alone. time just. to keep time when we were doing exercises now i have to ask the other guy after i reenlisted i had nowhere to stay time he agreed just like that he did the cleaning and i did the cooking together came home together slept in the same air bed woke up every morning and went to sirius together. that's enough with the time. time. if he hadn't covered the grenade with his body a lot of other guys would have done it in a split second he made a conscious decision and found the courage to throw himself on top of it. if it was

not for nothing. would have goods but we have a purpose. unless we come back here is that russia may drown in chaos. we took a dog holds above it with us on that mission you wouldn't want to bring your lawn the first is there was barely enough room in the truck and then would put her in her lap to maneuver. which was then she started behaving strangely. yogo and running frantically back and forth whimpering. till she must've felt that she was about to die. but we went several meters along the path before winds above us would have to the site knew there was a patch with no snow and we saw

a hatch at that very moment it opened and militants started shooting from it. i open file in the hatch in commanded to go for the attack a. sort of chain of jumped ahead and suddenly the dog less house and very loud how then she turned back and covered me with her own body and blocked the machine gun thaw and that the medicines were a means strikes at me. on how to last press it was so long so lalage and then it was silence. i couldn't help myself after that i started crying for. the most part of very often think about recently taken in a german shepherd puppy and i'm training him for comet tusks. but i notice that she resembles the. same looking you saw is. just the way she did

it there is a very clear resemblance between the two of them. good lumber tour. was able to build a new most sophisticated. fortunately. anything tim's mission to teach music creation why it should care about humans and. this is why you should care only. if you have to remember that israel if they were in the cabin the award for best performance by a country israel would win every year it's really fit or. not to know who is the star of the theater so i did so the few moments ago now we have to

distinguish between israel. and its actual position israel wouldn't be investing billions and billions of dollars into building this wall if it wanted territory beyond the wall. i mean if i had a hard time doing it's not going to go ahead. i'm sorry it's not just the wall and the west bank and gaza they're in. syria actually because. they're. drilling gas to somebody else of gas and oil. is on a journey to such. one hundred twenty three days. through two hundred ton two cities of russia. relayed by fourteen thousand people

or sixty thousand killings. in a record setting trip by. air sea and others face. olympic torch relay. m r t r t dot com. of course my health is and what it used to be before i was but i'm trying to get back in shape right now i'm trying to get as a special forces officer is supposed to be. my family and friends for the idea that i'm not going to resign i try to explain to them there's no one who's ever going to take my place on the mission. i just have to learn the lesson of my way. in the army at the.